I'm
baaaaack!!!!! Or should I say we're back!
Here is my saga, a tale that is true, its got joy, its got
sadness, its got vomit, poop, formula and breast milk.
Our due date or shall I say my surgery date was April 30, 2009. My instructions were to be checked in at St. Francis at 5:30am, yes the same time the sun comes up. My bag was packed I was ready to go the night before. I went to bed rather late since I wanted a shower, (I new I wouldn't get one at the hospital and I wanted to go all clean!). I go to bed, and wake up 2 hours later with a strange feeling of peeing my pants. Yes you guessed it my water broke at 1:15am!!
I made it to the bathroom where most of my water was released, as I kept saying "no...no...no..no.. this is not the right time you little fart". I went downstairs and woke Chris up, he just looked at me funny as I grabbed the phone to call mom and dad. Into the downstairs bathroom I go, since I am leaking everywhere. Dad answers and I give him the great news. Poor dad, he hadn't been asleep very long since he had been helping Pat and Joann at the new salon. He tells me that he needs to hop in the shower then he will come and get us, mom will stay with
Talan until Joann gets here at 5am. As soon as I get off the phone I start having contractions. This is not supposed to be happening this way! Once again I get the joy of dealing
with contractions and a body that doesn't
dilate. I have my bag in the car, I am waiting in the kitchen to see the headlights of the parents car,
Chris is calling his parents over and over and over. Poor Chris, his parents ringer wasn't working, so he couldn't get
hold of them. As soon as I see the headlights, I am on the front patio having yet again another contraction. Dad jokingly goes, gosh are you ready, and I look him in the eye and say " we have to go and go now, I"m having contractions that are 2 minutes apart". The fire under the butt was lit and off we went. Once at the E.R. we are greeted by staff that of course knows my dad, for those of you who don't know this, I can't go anywhere without someone knowing my dad. We get rushed right up to the birthing unit. I had a great nurse who helped my though several contractions,
after all I am there with my husband and dad, there is no other female there to help me breath or talk softly to me. C.J. the nurse you rock! I'm given a shot the first of three to stop my contractions, now this shot gives you the jitters, makes your pulse race and can lower your blood pressure. first shot goes well, we wait 20 minutes and I get the second. It slightly takes the edge off the contractions, but it doesn't stop them. The on call doctor, Dr. Snyder (he is great) comes in to visit me after 2 hours of contractions, to tell me we are going to do the c-section now, (its 4am). Dad changes into some very attractive scrubs, Chris goes to wait in the waiting area (alone until my mom got there at 515am). Dr. Snyder and C.J. the nurse walk me to the operating room, Dr. Snyder he even helped me into a robe so my ass wasn't hanging out in the wind for all to see. Dad now he was a bundle of energy and excitement. I think he could have burst at the seams if he could have! I get a spinal block, which is not as good as an epidural, but it takes the edge off. Now here is the gory,
PTSD part of my saga....spinal blocks really just take the edge off, you can still feel what is happening to you. Every snip, cut, pull, tug, you can feel it. Now I have a damn high pain tolerance, but a person can only take so much.
Ahren is so large and he hadn't dropped at all, so after I endured the cuts and snips, I had a full grown man put all his weight on me to help push
Ahren out while the other doctor pulled from the other end. This was horrible, I can't breath, from the pressure. I hear my dad gasp "He is huge, look at those shoulders". I don't or can't look but damn I can tell he is huge by the way he is being jerked out of me. I hear the first cries and Dad is off to see his new grandson. I am still on the table wishing it was over. I'm being put back together like
humpty dumpty there is pulling and stretching, and the pain in horrible. I finally beg for something to take the pain away. So I'm given some good drugs where my head feels like the Good Year Blimp, but it doesn't last long enough. So those interviews with people who say they woke up during their surgeries and felt everything, that is was I went through. I know understand it all! I finally get back to my room and so far things are good, I get to feed
Ahren for the first time and that went well, but then all of sudden I have to puke. Mom grabs
Ahren, the nurse gives me a bag since there wasn't a basin close by, and the dry heaves start. This is ultra painful since I just had major abdominal surgery. I can't open my eyes,
every time I do I get sick, like motion sick but worse. My blood pressure is very low and this is making dad nervous. I just have to let it run its course, or I'd be given something that would knock me out until the next day, and I didn't want that. So for 4 hours I am sicker than a dog. My parents have wonderful bedside manners, feeding me ice chips when I was finally allowed them.
This was just so freaky! But it all turned out so wonderful.. I ended up with the most adorable little boy.
Talan is a big brother and he loves
Ahren. So for the past 3 weeks I have spent time healing, getting to know
Ahren, tried the breast feeding thing and it worked for a bit, but not as long as I wanted it to.
I tried breast feeding again, and it worked for about two weeks, until Ahren wasn't gaining any weight, and my supply just wasn't enough for him. Not to mention one badly cracked nipple which that in itself will make you want to quit. At least he got two weeks worth, and now I am a little more free to go places and not rush.
Talan is adjusting well to the new baby, he wants to feed him, burp him, poke his eyes out, and he did ask to leave him at grandma's house last weekend, that was pretty funny.
All in all it has been a wonderful 4 weeks. Chris went back to work this past weekend, and he is not ready.
Ahren had a weight check yesterday and is past his birth weight which is good news! We go back to the doctor on Monday for his one month check up and a round of shots. I hate this part.